How do you provide for your child?
What would you do if your son was at home
Crying all alone
On the bedroom floor
Cause he’s hungry and the only way to feed him is to
Sleep with a man for a little bit of money?
That 90s hit song, “What Would You Do?” by City High, came to mind as I gave this story a title.
This time last year I did a lot of things to provide for my child,but sleeping with a man, including the father of my child, for a little bit of money was not one.
Instead, I did things like braid hair, I babysat, and I was even a janitor for short period of time. I mean God really BROKE ME DOWN.
I had just graduated from college the year before and then had a baby. After I had Gia, my life seemed to slow all the way down! For me this was TRAGEDY! I lived life in the fast lane. I enjoyed being busy and being spontaneous. So I struggled a bit with depression and I thought that I didn’t need to be anything, but a mother. For a long time, I thought that God just wanted me to be a mom and that he was going to send me a husband to put me out of my misery. BUT GOD, does not work that way.
A couple of months before Gia’s first birthday I was faced with that question, “What would you do to provide for your child?” My answer was, “Anything God.”
From January 2015, to December 2015, I cycled through a total of 7 jobs! When I tell you that I have lived and am still living out ,
If you are faithful over a little I will make you a owner over more.
If that ain’t the truth!
My plot twist came after I had been a janitor. For me this was the lowest of the lows. Cleaning toilets and taking out other people’s trash, really lit that fire that pushed me to want more out of life. I wanted to set the bar for my child higher and I looked for a different option. Literally a month later, I was working at a shelter for victims of domestic violence and sexual assault and my life has never been the same since.
I want encourage YOU today. I want you to know that wherever you are in this season of motherhood, that it is going to get better. You will get better. You will be OK. God is going to put you through somethings, but know that it is for your good. I didn’t think so when I was going from job to job, the pain was ALOT, but God saw me through.
I truly can say that I am not where I want to be, but I thank God that I am not where I used to be. Amen?!
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