I thought about all of the things that I would like to do before entering in a serious relationship. One of the things that came to mind was to serve God. Weird right? Well… not really.
After I had my daughter, I stopped going to church for a little while. One of the reasons was because I didn’t want to take a newborn to church. Then another reason was because I was so ashamed and didn’t want to walk into with a baby and without a wedding ring.
As time went on, things changed. I was tired of staying in the house. I was tired of being alone all day with an infant. I wanted more. I missed the fellowship that is found in church and so I went searching or that again.
And in the last year and half, I attended bigger churches where I didn’t really feel needed. I thought that they had it all together and that they didn’t need me. While this was so wrong, this is what I thought and that is what kept me from serving.
Just recently, like a month ago, I joined a small church that is growing and that needs help. I feel at home and I feel like if I were to miss church one Sunday, I’d be missed. Not only that, but I feel like I could serve God and that my efforts would really make a difference.
I think that by focusing on serving God, I will keep my mind from stressing over the fact that I am still single. Not only that but, you know, I think about Ruth and how Boaz found her working in the fields. I too want my husband-to-be to find me working, but for God.
My point is… serve God. Serve God in Spirit and in Truth. Serve God with gladness. Give up your heart’s desires to God and seek Him first and trust that all of those dreams will be added unto you.
At least that’s what I am hoping. God hasn’t failed me yet. Amen?!